I don’t have to be okay.  In fact, I don’t even have to act okay.  I struggle with my demons, and occasionally I have a bad day.  As a woman, I tend to feel the necessity to shove aside any dismay I might feel.  I feel the need to “buck up” and smile away my pain.

I can do that occasionally, but I don’t need to do that all the time, and here’s why…Because letting myself be vulnerable to the world can allow for beautiful things.  Sometimes having someone see me for who I am in that moment will allow for the Holy Spirit to work wonders.  My broken, wounded self can call someone else to pick me up.  In that there is beauty.  Why? Because friendships are hard to find, for both parties.  I am in need of a friend and someone else is looking to be a friend.

We all have our strengths, but we do not have to be strong all of the time.  I believe it is good to push yourself a little.  That it can be okay to power through the hurt on occasion, but I don’t feel it is healthy to dismiss it every single time.  If you and I keep pushing that pain into the back corner of our mind, will it ever find away out?  Can we heal from such a hurt if we never deal with it?

What about those around us?  Why would they want to be bothered by our struggles and strife?  Honestly because there are many who have been where you are today.  Maybe God will lead you to someone who knows how to help you get our of the depths of despair.  Maybe He will guide you to someone else who can empathize because they too are dealing with a similar situation.

I can’t find out what God has in store for me if I just tell the world, “I’m fine.” when I’m absolutely not.

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I don't have to be okay

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